Swimming in the Dark
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- Author：Tomasz Jedrowski
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Summary
Set in early 1980s Poland against the violent decline of communism， a tender and passionate story of first love between two young men who eventually find themselves on opposite sides of the political divide—a stunningly poetic and heartrending literary debut for fans of Andre Aciman， Garth Greenwell， and Alan Hollinghurst。
When university student Ludwik meets Janusz at a summer agricultural camp， he is fascinated yet wary of this handsome， carefree stranger。 But a chance meeting by the river soon becomes an intense， exhilarating， and all-consuming affair。 After their camp duties are fulfilled， the pair spend a dreamlike few weeks camping in the countryside， bonding over an illicit copy of James Baldwin’s Giovanni’s Room。 Inhabiting a beautiful natural world removed from society and its constraints， Ludwik and Janusz fall deeply in love。 But in their repressive communist and Catholic society， the passion they share is utterly unthinkable。
Once they return to Warsaw， the charismatic Janusz quickly rises in the political ranks of the party and is rewarded with a highly-coveted position in the ministry。 Ludwik is drawn toward impulsive acts of protest， unable to ignore rising food prices and the stark economic disparity around them。 Their secret love and personal and political differences slowly begin to tear them apart as both men struggle to survive in a regime on the brink of collapse。
Shifting from the intoxication of first love to the quiet melancholy of growing up and growing apart， Swimming in the Dark is a potent blend of romance， post-war politics， intrigue， and history。 Lyrical and sensual， immersive and intense， Tomasz Jedrowski has crafted an indelible and thought-provoking literary debut that explores freedom and love in all its incarnations。
When university student Ludwik meets Janusz at a summer agricultural camp， he is fascinated yet wary of this handsome， carefree stranger。 But a chance meeting by the river soon becomes an intense， exhilarating， and all-consuming affair。 After their camp duties are fulfilled， the pair spend a dreamlike few weeks camping in the countryside， bonding over an illicit copy of James Baldwin’s Giovanni’s Room。 Inhabiting a beautiful natural world removed from society and its constraints， Ludwik and Janusz fall deeply in love。 But in their repressive communist and Catholic society， the passion they share is utterly unthinkable。
Once they return to Warsaw， the charismatic Janusz quickly rises in the political ranks of the party and is rewarded with a highly-coveted position in the ministry。 Ludwik is drawn toward impulsive acts of protest， unable to ignore rising food prices and the stark economic disparity around them。 Their secret love and personal and political differences slowly begin to tear them apart as both men struggle to survive in a regime on the brink of collapse。
Shifting from the intoxication of first love to the quiet melancholy of growing up and growing apart， Swimming in the Dark is a potent blend of romance， post-war politics， intrigue， and history。 Lyrical and sensual， immersive and intense， Tomasz Jedrowski has crafted an indelible and thought-provoking literary debut that explores freedom and love in all its incarnations。
Reviews
Vitor Cesar
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O livro foi escrito com uma sensibilidade gigante。 Vc percebe como a história é importante pro autor。 Esse último capítulo me fez chorar， tem uma carga emocional muito forte ali。
Scott Garrison
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Wow。。。this story is beautiful。 In my opinion， Swimming in the Dark is 2020's Call Me by Your Name。 Tomasz Jedrowski has created something very special。 I cannot wait to read more of his work。 Amazing debut！ Wow。。。this story is beautiful。 In my opinion， Swimming in the Dark is 2020's Call Me by Your Name。 Tomasz Jedrowski has created something very special。 I cannot wait to read more of his work。 Amazing debut！ 。。。more
Alexandra
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loved this so much
Anne-marie Thinnes
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An absolutely wonderful， nicely written book about being gay in the eighties in Poland and making concessions， or not。。。
Nathan Connor
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Lovely little tale， a coming of age story set in difficult times。
Hanna Boven
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☹️This was my feeling at the end。 Don't get me wrong， it was a good book and I enjoyed reading it， but I was not invested in the characters a lot and so I wasn't as heart broken at the end as I expected。Oprah compared this novel to CMBYN， but set in Poland instead of Italy。 I did not agree， I thought CMBYN was much better and more cinematically written。 Elio was also a more interesting character than the main character of this novel。 The best part was def the lake part， it was very romantic and ☹️This was my feeling at the end。 Don't get me wrong， it was a good book and I enjoyed reading it， but I was not invested in the characters a lot and so I wasn't as heart broken at the end as I expected。Oprah compared this novel to CMBYN， but set in Poland instead of Italy。 I did not agree， I thought CMBYN was much better and more cinematically written。 Elio was also a more interesting character than the main character of this novel。 The best part was def the lake part， it was very romantic and I got the *feels* 。。。more
Cory Decareaux
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Stunning and all around phenomenal。 A quick， yet beautiful read。 I couldn’t put it down and felt right there with the characters。 Already looking forward to reading it again。
Gareth Griffiths
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This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers。 To view it， click here。 I feel like I’m going crazy reading the reviews for this book。 It’s not necessarily that the reviews are mostly positive and I， personally， kind of fucking hated the majority of this novel， but it’s that even the negative ones don’t seem to hone in on what I disliked。 So， let’s get into it！ Warning: this one’s another lengthy rant and also just kind of my personal garbage opinion。 You've been cautioned。Swimming in the Dark is a 2020 novel by Tomasz Jedrowski， a Polish author born in West Germany I feel like I’m going crazy reading the reviews for this book。 It’s not necessarily that the reviews are mostly positive and I， personally， kind of fucking hated the majority of this novel， but it’s that even the negative ones don’t seem to hone in on what I disliked。 So， let’s get into it！ Warning: this one’s another lengthy rant and also just kind of my personal garbage opinion。 You've been cautioned。Swimming in the Dark is a 2020 novel by Tomasz Jedrowski， a Polish author born in West Germany in 1985。 It’s important to note this because Jedrowski was 4 years old at the collapse of communism in Europe。 The reason why it’s important to point out where / when Jedrowski was born is because this book is mostly about life in Poland under communism。 It’s specifically the story of Ludwik and his coming of age and coming out as gay under an authoritarian regime， his doomed affair with comrade Janusz， and his ultimate leaving of Poland for the “freedom” of America。I knew something was wrong when I received the paperback （pre-ordered） in the post， opened to the first page， and saw a glowing review from Andrew Adonis in The Daily Express。 Unsurprising that a story about longing and unrequited love speaks to Adonis given how he’s wanted to fuck Tony Blair for the last 3 decades。 But here’s my point: the book is excruciatingly anti-leftist in a way that’s both distracting and detrimental to the plot and theme。The book hammers you with complaints about life under communism。 This wouldn’t be an issue if the author actually knew what that was like and the story was authentic， but it’s not。 Most of the complaints seem right out The Telegraph’s Hacks’ Guide to Justifying Benefit Cuts。 Ludwik complains about queueing – A LOT。 It’s actual the focal point of his complaints about the authoritarian regime apart from the gay persecution。 I’m British so… can’t relate to the queue hatred。 There’s also struggles with Ludwik’s granny having to wait to get treated or there not being enough food， it’s all quite clichéd， but that’s besides the point。I’m not against anti-leftist literature。 I’m against bad anti-leftist literature。 Genuine accounts and biographies from people who suffered under authoritarian regimes have validity and can be compelling reads， but， as I said earlier， Jedrowski was born in 1985 in West Germany。 The problems seem definitely inauthentic to me。 It’s like bad CIA propaganda。 The book ends with the promise that Poland ‘confront[ing] [their] darkness’ and like… yeah， Poland sure is a haven for gay people now。 Definitely life as a gay man is easy in Poland after communism。 Haven’t heard anything bad about LGBTQ life in eastern Europe after the wall collapsed！ It makes no sense that this story is being told when it’s told， like， at least presently you can say America is better for gay men than Poland， but again， this book isn’t about gay men， it’s about anti-communism。Ludwik genuinely holds America as a mecca for freedom and liberty。 However， the novel is frustratingly oblique and， in my opinion， purposefully obscure with what exactly freedom in the West means for a gay man in the 1980s。 That’s why Ludwik longs for a nebulous “freedom” and has a spiritual moment upon seeing a washing machine for the first time。 Reminiscing of how tirelessly his granny slaves over an old-fashioned washing-board - ostensibly without his help I might add。 Sidenote: Ludwik is kind of insanely selfish， but that， in itself， isn’t an issue for a novel， especially a romance novel where that sort of self-involvement is par for the course。 He revels in western music and literature and film and ultimately escapes Poland for life in America。 America。 America in 1980。 A gay man in America in 1980。 In New York。 Hope they taught you how to use a condom in your state-funded education， Ludwik， you’re going to need it！Maybe that was a little tactless of me， but the book is tactless also！ There’s a scene in America where Ludwik sees a photo of Poland in which there’s a movie poster for Apocalypse Now which causes Ludwik to remark， “All these years they’d let us watch foreign films， allowing us glimpses of the world across the Wall， of freedoms we didn’t have。 Did they really think we’d be still forever？” Apocalypse Now？！ A movie which excoriates America’s genocidal war against an incipient communist nation， detailing the psychological horror it impressed on its own citizens forcing them to fight and die for an unjust cause in a pointless and bloody conflict that permanently marred the region？ Really？ That’s your rallying-call to anti-communist revolution？ Couldn’t come up with a single other movie from this time that doesn’t have a thesis that directly contradicts everything in your novel？ Apocalypse fucking Now？！I genuinely thought this was ironic。 It had to have been。 It has to be that Ludwik was supposed to be in the wrong here。 His worldview has to be purposefully ignorant。 There are hints that Ludwik is supposed to be seen as naive， that oppression and corruption aren’t unique to communism but to human structures as a whole， but it’s not in the end。 Ludwik is presented as being in the right。 He’s right to damn Janusz for essentially prostituting himself in a corrupt system to get a better life for both of them （also， I could， but I won’t， go into the weird anti-sex-worker undertones and overall subtle misogyny of the book， but this is going to be long enough as it is）。 He ends up in America and， despite leaving his friends and his elderly， sick grandmother， he’s good。 He misses aspects of life in Poland， but it’s cool， he can buy pierogis in midtown。 Grandma tells him to stay in the USA！ It’s all fine！ Poland sucks！ He made the right choice because he was pursuing individual liberty。 Speaking of Ludwik’s granny， I have to talk about this paragraph:“‘Your mother died of loneliness，’ Granny would always repeat， claiming it was because she had never remarried after my father。 But I think it was despair that killed her。 Having done only things she didn’t believe in; she must have been dead inside for years before her body finally gave up too。”If your eyes didn’t immediately roll at speeds hitherto unheard of to the human body， hit me up， because mine sprang straight out of my sockets after reading this and I need a donor。 Ludwik’s mother died of lung cancer。 They “found something in her lungs。” I doubt it was a pierogi！ Ludwik’s mother introduced him to Radio Free Europe， yes， she was against the regime but I don’t think she died because she never got to go to The Gap。 What the hell does this even mean？ Ludwik talks about his mother getting depressed after his father leaves but she comes back from it （we’re led to believe）。 Also， “she must have been dead inside for years before her body finally gave up too。” Dear lord！ This is not how people behave！ See what I meant when I said this novel was anti-woman！ Anyway， Ludwik’s mother， and indeed， his grandmother， probably got respiratory problems from all the smoking and talking in whispers and murmurs every character in this book constantly does。 ASMR-talk damages your vocal cords， folks！But， and not to belabour the point， the idea of freedom or liberty in Swimming in the Dark is vague。 The book is corporeal to a fault; it relishes in the physical intimacy of its lovers and in the supposed poverty of its characters but that’s never elaborated on beyond， “this sucks， I want a cute BF and a flatscreen！” It straddles between freedom to publicly be with your partner without recrimination – which， again， America， 1980s， not happening – and this materialistic， hollow understanding of what it is to be free which supposedly caused Ludwik’s mother to shrivel up like some Victorian waif who just learned her husband was lost at sea。 Perhaps it’s freedom to live without intervention from a shadowy， omniscient state apparatus that punishes social dissidents。 Again， America， 1980s， certainly none of that there！ I don’t know what Ludwik actually wants and， frankly， neither does the author， it seems。 The novel would have been so much better if it was a real coming-of-age story where Ludwik matures， maybe goes to America and sees that his idealism was somewhat misplaced。 He would perhaps go to America and finds joy in the open queer communities in New York （that are imminently about to be decimated by AIDS。） He sees the police raids， street violence， and social out-casting and develops a more matured view of America。 Maybe even finds a new boy！ Okay， at least it’s legal to be gay in America in 1980 （at least in New York）， but there should have been a deeper exploration of his character， or really， any of the characters。 All the people in this book seem hollow and act as mouthpieces for whatever hackneyed non-truism the author wants to impart。 Really， that’s the main problem with the book; it’s not just that it’s vapid， gay books and romances in general are and should be allowed to be， but it’s weirdly and counterintuitively propagandistic。 Which leads me to my overall point and my hairbrained conspiracy theory。 Hear me out: this wasn’t written by Tomasz Jedrowski， this was written by an algorithm developed by the CIA to churn out anti-leftist propaganda。 They fed the machine a copy of Call Me by Your Name and it plopped this book out。 If that sounds a little far-fetched for you， bear with me， because I have more evidence！ Believe me！ It's totally not nit-picky either！ I promise！The whole book seems algorithmically generated。 The writing is so soulless， it reads like every other MFA author’s work， carefully workshopped across years with dozens of academics who teach creative writing courses to dead-eyed trust-fund scions。 I’ve seen some negative reviews say that it reads like a movie， which， yeah， duh， all books do now because all books are written with the express purpose of being optioned for the screen， but it’s particularly egregious here because it’s clearly aping Luca Guadagnino’s Call Me By Your Name， not the novel。It’s inundated with awful similes， trite metaphors， and groan-inducing dialogue like the above “my mum died of not getting to have an egg McMuffin” line。 Still， a lot of things written here don’t even scan for human eyes。 For example:“Father had just left us and Mother was so distraught I was afraid she’d die from grief。 She stayed in her room all day。 Her lips pale， her eyes red。 […] Then one day she came out of her room， her face made up， lipstick on and eyes dark with kohl， and she took me outside and lifted me onto her bike。 We rode all along our street and across the large empty park to the pool in the domed Centennial Hall。 […] This is where we went into the water together。”Ludwik’s mother got all dolled up – putting makeup all over her face – to… go swimming？ Eh？ It’s like the bot knew from all the Wikipedia summaries of book plots and articles from TV Tropes dot com it’s been fed that women without makeup are clearly depressed and when women wear makeup that means they’re happy but， because it’s a robot， it doesn’t know that water generally washes makeup off， making it pointless to put makeup on if you’re going swimming。There’s so many procedurally-generated cultural references， too。 I。E。 Ludwik’s at a party and Heart of Glass comes on， and there’s this strange line: “Blondie’s siren voice had filled the room。” “Blondie” is the name of the band。 The singer of Blondie is Debbie Harry。 This isn’t even a translation thing， later on， they’re listening to The Velvet Underground and Ludwik references Nico’s singing explicitly。 It’s like the AI that wrote this knew that Blondie， The Velvet Underground， and Nico are all artists in their own right， but Debbie Harry， not being known for having a solo career， slipped under the radar。I could go on and list plenty of terrible lines and nonsense sentences。 I could write a book about all the banal platitudes Ludwik’s awful granny regurgitates whenever she speaks， but that would be unkind。 It’s unkind because the computer doesn’t know any better。 It was programmed to emulate contemporary queer literature with a firmly pro-America， anti-leftist message。 It doesn’t know when it’s speaking nonsense or that it writes dialogue like a greeting card。 All it knows is what it’s been programmed to know。 It can't know what the world outside it is like and is doomed to determinism。 So， I’d like to reframe this review。 I didn’t like the book much， but， because it was written by a CIA-programmed supercomputer， it is readable， it’s designed to be read， ingested。 Its message of the evils of nationalised medicine and assured income to be absorbed into the subject’s psyche and properly expressed whenever there’s an election。 There are nice sections and lines but that hard-wired anti-leftist programming just subsumes most of the enjoyment I - and I personally - could have got from this text。 I’m actually impressed that a machine did all this， managed to get all these amazing reviews and even sparked a bidding war over publishing rights。 Scarily impressed。 So， I say， Kudos to this book！ I salute our robot overlords and welcome their reign any day now， for surely， they know the ills of authoritarianism and the joys of gay sex。 Hurrah！ 。。。more
Agnes
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I haven't read a book set in Poland in a while and so I was excited to read this one that had some buzz。 Even though the author didn't fully grow up in Poland， he captured the feeling， the culture， everything。 The descriptions were so beautifully written; it made me feel so nostalgic。 The story of a gay romance during communist Poland was also very powerful。 I haven't read a book set in Poland in a while and so I was excited to read this one that had some buzz。 Even though the author didn't fully grow up in Poland， he captured the feeling， the culture， everything。 The descriptions were so beautifully written; it made me feel so nostalgic。 The story of a gay romance during communist Poland was also very powerful。 。。。more
Isabelle
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Fascinating to hear about how it is to be gay and young and be living in Poland in the early 80s。 such a different way of love and a truly beautiful love story。
Kloyde Caday
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Ouch
Nikol
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" 'I adored this book more than you knew'， it read there in your stocky， right-leaning script。 'I wanted to keep it 。 。 。 but it’s yours。 Bring it back one day if you can。 I’ll be here。‘ "I‘m fine， I just🥲 " 'I adored this book more than you knew'， it read there in your stocky， right-leaning script。 'I wanted to keep it 。 。 。 but it’s yours。 Bring it back one day if you can。 I’ll be here。‘ "I‘m fine， I just🥲 。。。more
Wesley Thomas
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Heartbreaking yet beautiful。 History and romance。
Paulina Sikorska
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„Tak właśnie wtedy żyłem - książkami。 Zamykałem się w fabułach， nocą śniłem o postaciach， naśladowałem je。 Były moją zbroją przeciw kanciastej rzeczywistości。 Nosiłem je w sobie， gdziekolwiek szedłem， jak talizman w kieszeni， myśląc o nich jak o butach bardziej realnych niż ludzie dookoła， którzy żyli w stanie wyparcia i których przeznaczeniem， jak sądziłem， nie było nic wartego upamiętnienia。”
Ludo Spaepen
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Ludwik en Janush，beiden pas afgestudeerd，worden verliefd op mekaar。Maar in het Polen van Gierek ca1980） zijn homoseksualiteit en ambities in het leven onverenigbaar。Ludwik kiest voor de liefde en Janush voor een comfortabel leven。
tessie
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（4。5）this book installing in me that i now want to exclusively read sad gay historical novels
Annf Lrquet
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Prachtig
Luke Hall
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great writing style that really put you into the relationship between the two main characters of the book， being written as a long letter for love lost。 Really great contrast between human relationships and relationship with an authoritarian state and the internal dilemmas that arise， and a great insight into what life was like in post WW2 Poland under soviet rule。
Merel
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Prachtig en tragisch en prachtig
Priya
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I LOVED LOVED LOVED THIS BOOK！！ i'll never be able to move on from it I LOVED LOVED LOVED THIS BOOK！！ i'll never be able to move on from it 。。。more
Gordon Prescott
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The poetry of the love story between two boys in communist Poland is an enveloping reading experience。 The use of language is heavenly。 When you lines like this on the page， “ a strong neck with a place made out for his Adam’s apple” or “ I felt a dull reproach against myself， an alienation from my twenty-two-year old body” ，you can’t help but fall under the spell of the writing。
Nico Deloddere
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Het boek begint als een klassiek ‘gay first love’ verhaal， maar krijgt een enorme diepgang door de achtergrond。 Het speelt zich af in het communistisch Polen van begin jaren 80， waar je door eenvoudige beschrijvingen een idee krijgt van de dagdagelijkse hardheid van het bestaan。 Dit contrasteert met het leven van de elite waar je een glimp van opvangt。 De nakende instorting van het communisme wordt zo soepel verweven met het liefdesverhaal dat je perplex achterblijft。 Een meesterlijk debuut！
Gabriela Witosová
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Naprosto úžasný příběh！
Julia Dijkers
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Ach♥️ Wat een liefdevol boek。 Twee jongens vinden elkaar tijdens een schoolkamp op het platteland van Polen。 Een onmogelijke liefde， een bloedhete zomer: zo op het eerste oog lijkt het veel weg te hebben van Call me by your name （André Aciman）。 Het grote verschil zit hem echter in de achtergrond waartegen het verhaal zich afspeelt: Polen， begin jaren ‘80。 De twee blijken verschillende ideeën en idealen te hebben， die van grotere invloed blijken te zijn dan ze aanvankelijk dachten。（Ook heel inter Ach♥️ Wat een liefdevol boek。 Twee jongens vinden elkaar tijdens een schoolkamp op het platteland van Polen。 Een onmogelijke liefde， een bloedhete zomer: zo op het eerste oog lijkt het veel weg te hebben van Call me by your name （André Aciman）。 Het grote verschil zit hem echter in de achtergrond waartegen het verhaal zich afspeelt: Polen， begin jaren ‘80。 De twee blijken verschillende ideeën en idealen te hebben， die van grotere invloed blijken te zijn dan ze aanvankelijk dachten。（Ook heel interessant om door dit verhaal meer te weten te komen over de geschiedenis van Warschau/Polen）。 。。。more
Jaxon
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So instantly absorbed in this one。 Best damn thing I’ve read in ages。
AP Call
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3。5
Megan Snedden
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This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers。 To view it， click here。 Set mostly in Warsaw in 1980。 Ludwik is sent to an agricultural camp following University， where he meets Janusz。 Afterwards， the pair go camping （and swimming in the dark） in the countryside over the summer， and fall in love。 Reality hits when they both return to Warsaw - they have to be secretive about their relationship， and they realise they have opposing views about the communist regime， and their respective futures in the country。 Ludwik longs for freedom， and his eyes are further opened t Set mostly in Warsaw in 1980。 Ludwik is sent to an agricultural camp following University， where he meets Janusz。 Afterwards， the pair go camping （and swimming in the dark） in the countryside over the summer， and fall in love。 Reality hits when they both return to Warsaw - they have to be secretive about their relationship， and they realise they have opposing views about the communist regime， and their respective futures in the country。 Ludwik longs for freedom， and his eyes are further opened to the injustice of the regime， with food prices rising， long queues for medication， and the realisation that without contacts in the Party， he'll be unable to achieve （e。g。 being accepted for a doctorate）。 In contrast， Janusz has a job with the Government， and is happy to use his contacts in the Party （Hania and Maksio） to make a life for himself in Poland。It's quite a heartbreaking tale， with Ludwik slowly realising that he must leave Janusz and flee Poland for America。 He even has difficulty in doing so， as until seeking help from Hania， his passport & visa for America were being withheld until he gives them the names of other 'homosexuals' so they could also be black-listed。 When in New York， Ludwik is following the news of martial law being imposed in Poland， following strikes and protests and the rise of 'Solidarity'。 He wonders what Janusz thinks about the Party now。 We also find out that Janusz marries and has a child with Hania， to try and get on in life， despite also being gay。The book finishes quite abruptly， and I was left wanting more， but also wanting to know whether both main characters would be OK - Ludwik so far away from home and heartbroken， and Janusz living a lie。 。。。more
Lucinda
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2。5 really。 I wanted to like this more but the self conscious style and overuse of similes lessened the beauty and impact of a potentially gripping love story。
Oliver Lewis
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One of the most raw， intimate， beautifully crafted novels I have ever read。 Exceptional！ This one will stick with me for a long time。
Daniil
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Swimming in the Dark is a beautifully written short book on forbidden love in time of intolerance。 The first quarter of the book had absolutely enthralled me - with that raw and heartfelt falling in love with Janusz， those awkward moments by the river， that magic on the secret lake。。。 that tangible eroticism without erotic scenes as such。 That slow seduction and torment of innocence。。。 I just wished that the whole book would be one never ending magic of those first days and the boys would never Swimming in the Dark is a beautifully written short book on forbidden love in time of intolerance。 The first quarter of the book had absolutely enthralled me - with that raw and heartfelt falling in love with Janusz， those awkward moments by the river， that magic on the secret lake。。。 that tangible eroticism without erotic scenes as such。 That slow seduction and torment of innocence。。。 I just wished that the whole book would be one never ending magic of those first days and the boys would never emerge from that forest and into the real world。 But the book is bigger than that， plot is more complex than that and the whole picture is far more realistic and tragic that those first intoxicating chapters。 Swimming in the Dark reminded me of “Tin Man” by Sarah Winman - one of the most tender and beautiful books on love between two men。 Great read。 Recommend！ 。。。more
Reference
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hathitrust digital library https://babel.hathitrust.org/cgi/ls?q1=Swimming in the Dark&field1=ocr&a=srchls&ft=ft&lmt=ft
The British Library https://bll01.primo.exlibrisgroup.com/discovery/search?query=any,contains,Swimming in the Dark&tab=LibraryCatalog&search_scope=Not_BL_Suppress&vid=44BL_INST:BLL01&lang=en&offset=0